a raindow is a sign of blessing.

well I had a rotten weekend as you may have read on the last post.a rotten one to say the lest.but I have found that with friends and family to talk to you can make it if you leave what you cant change in the Lords hands.Anna was of great help as she aways is.if I hadnt had her to talk to I wouldnt have made it.and kruze helped to.but the one who realy helped was the Lord.when I went to bed and was soooo depressed. He came and comforted me by saying to give him tell next week to work it out.this peace came over me and I fell asleep.the sick feeling in the pit of my tummy went away and I knew He was working it out.the next morning that was sunday I woke with this feeling of things would be ok. I stayed away from my blog cause didnt want to hear what a fool I was,after all I already knew that. I tryed to keep my mind on the fact of what Anna had said and what the Lord had said.and the day went well.I had a good day.it was as if the thoughts were being held at bay.it was the Lord I know and the prayers of others.I could feel it.and this morning before I did any thing I called the SSI office.and would you believe I got right through.and if any of you know that in its self is a miracle.if you have ever tryed to get some one on the line.I talked to this lady who said she had my file on her desk and was working on it.that my check wasnt going to be changed but would stay the same.in other words I would recieve what I got before all this other stuff went on.so I will not lose my money.thank you Jesus.I told her that hubby needed help and asked if they would still help him.but she said they couldnt say do to privisy act.so I dont know if he is still not willing to get the help he needs or not.but guess its not my place to worry about him any more.FPN on my blog says I pick losers so guess I should just not pick any more.but the funny part is I was under the belief the Lord picked this one.so if that is true neather of us can pick men worth beans so guess I better check with E harmony .com!!! just kidding so dont get all bent out of shape.believe me I learned my lesson like FPN says "Im better off alone!!!"but I still care about hubby and want to see him get the help he needs. and believe me he does need help.I want to thank those who really cared to leave comforting words and for your honest feeling s and for your prayers.I felt them working all week end. thank you Lord for being there for me.and thank you to all who stopped by to read.I may have my check back and all is looking brighter.but now I will deside if I keep on bloging.this whole thing has given me a new view of things.and I dont know if what I may have to say is worth any ones time let alone my own to put it here.I say things the way I say it .and I get in deep doo all the time for doing it. thanks for reading.