Thank you Merle.
for the award.....

thank you dear Merle..

A very sweet lady gave me the "Inspirational blogger award."but I dont know how to put it on my side bar.so Ill just thank her this way and let you know what she did.

first award I ever recieved in my whole life.and it blessed me a lot.but I have to share it with my best friend Jesus cause he is the one who helps me write.


this has to be a short post cause I am busy and tired to.I was out of town for a few days.and I have to get some other stuff done.

God bless you all and have a great week.

something to think about.

the best vitamin for a Christian is B 1...(saw on a sign out side a church..)

Jesus didnt trust people ,he knew what was in their hearts.he trusted God and let him take care of the people..
if you trust people you will always be dispointed.but if you trust God you will always be warned ahead of time..

diamonds dancing on the water.

Its wonderful to live by the river,s and lakes.but not if your in a flood plain.
26 people have died in the floods that have hit places in the mid west.and more rain on the way.
I watched the new,s and saw the aftermath of the 12 or more inches of rain that has caused people heart ache in low laying land along rivers.

I went out to visit with Anna and the kids.Sar bear was there to.we all watched movies and just enjoyed the day.

we have had rain for days now.the boys and girls are getting ready for another school year.hair cuts and school clothes.signing up and paying for school.busy time for all.

the Lord made a way for Em my oldest grandaughter to be able to go to the school with her friends.if a friend of the family hadnt spoke up poor Em would have had to go to a main stream school instead of the one her friends were going to.
thank God for people who arent afraid to speak up for someone.
Em wasnt able to come up and visit cause she was out of town with friends.
but at lest Sar bear did.maybe Em will be able to later.

I dont have much to write about.havent really been doing much this summer.and the weather has been the pits lately.rain rain rain.
but the eagle has been coming by every day.sometimes so close to the window.he is out now over town circaling its been nice to see him.
he is by the river now doing his flying in place.he hovers in place and watch,s for fish.

as I drove out to Anna,s there were two tuckey buzzereds eating off some thing dead.they are ugly birds. at first I thought it was a eagle but the closer I got the more I could see it sure wasnt a eagle.
the tell tail red skin on the turkey buzzereds face gave it away.and when he flew I could see its wings.

I saw a crime on TV the other day ,it made me sick.
a born again christain man killed his wife and little girl.his wife found out he was addicted to porn on the internet.
she told him she was going to leave him if he didnt get the stuff off his computer.he didnt want to so he killed her and the little girl and throw their bodys in the trash.they never found the little girls body.its still in the land fill.they did find the mothers body.
good old Dad is found gilty and will spend rest of his miserable life in the slammer.can you believe a man would rather kill his wife and child to keep his dirty little secret?
AND THEY SAY PORN IS INNOCENT!!!!
Like I said before.dont trust people who mess with porn.their minds are sick...
first you have it,then it has you!!!!
this was a church going man.so he wasnt some wierdo so to speak.he went to one of the churchs who have their paster on TV.if I said the name you would know it.
if your married to some one who is playing with porn on TV or internet.be careful..get some help and have someone talk to him...
and if ya have to, do what I would do.
go to the hardwear store and get a slidge hammer. and when the old pev is gone.go in the room where the computer is and do some work on it.

hit it real good all over tell you know full well its dead.then drag it out to the trash and have the trash man take it away.better the computer then you and your kids...
a computer is a safe thing, only if those who own it are not addicted to on line porn.sick minds do sick things.

its sad that a full grown man would rather be with a picture on a computer screen or Tv screen,then with his wife and child.that is how messed up this world has become.where once the TV was the only sewer pipe that came into the home now there is one that is worse by far.
if your hubby needs to have his computer in a place where he can be alone.then you need to see why?
if it cant be where every one else is it just maybe Old pops is up to some thing...check it out girls before you find out too late...
there are ways to find out what is on the computer.it would pay to check.

if big Daddy is cooling off under the sheets he maybe doing his thing in front of the computer screen..thats how you tell.cause if a man is a one man band then he isnt interested in you.
and if he is interested in new ways to have sex find out where he is learning this stuff.
if your having douts about him and feel some thing is wrong then check it out.cause most women say they had a feeling some thing was wrong.and their feeling was right..

men are just little boys at heart.if they think they can get away with it they will try.
its a pain in the grass to have to be his mommy.but its either that or end up finding out your playing second best to a computer screen..or worse dead...

this poor lady should have gone to her paster first and told him what she found out.and had the paster talk to the old boy.
and then if old bubba still wouldnt get his act together then she should have left with out telling him she was going.
then tell him over the phone.it seem,s now there is a Idia the men have that its cheaper and easyer to kill your family off then get divorced.
if you dont believe me check the news now and then.its not just a few men its a lot of them.in the last few years more woman then I would like to see are being killed.
its the sign of our times...and the time we are in..
how many have to be killed before some thing is done????
while the porn kings and Queens in this world sit and make money off someone elses wickedness,and people die.
and no one does anything.there are xxx stores all over and the people do nothing.
it shows how far the USA has fallen.years ago people would have drummed them out of their towns and citys.but they keep getting bigger and bolder.
Its like having a sewer pipe in your back yard.you only leave the tap turned on a tiny bit.
but that tiny drip can soon become a flood..and soon your whole yard is covered with sewage.

its the same way with porn.or the porn industery.give them a inch and they will take a 100 miles...
its like a camel and a puptent.if you let the poor cold camel put his head in your tent.by morning you will be sleeping on the ground out side. and the whole camel will be in your tent..

you cant play with a snake and not get bite...sooner or later it will bite you.
its the nature of the beast...

I pray some day the world will be a place where this kind of junk is a thing of the past.but I am not dumb,I know it will only come when Jesus comes back to set up his kingdom for a 1000 years.then the lion will lay down with the lamb.
but tell then we are in a bad time in the worlds history.
a great falling away from God has begon.and its plain all over.

Jesus said it would come before he called for us who believe in him.
and it has started.if you dont believe me then you havent been watching the news.one by one the book of Revelations is being played out before us.
but also the "good" God talked about is coming to pass to.
millions of people are coming into the kingdom of God.
countrys who wouldnt have christains come into them.now ask for pasters to come and speak to their people.
the harvest Jesus spoke of is coming in...
BUT THE SAD PART IS DAY IN AND OUT THE HARVEST OF HELL IS COMING IN TO...

"I choose to fill heaven not hell."
Jesus please help the people who will hear today to come into your kingdom.help them turn to you before its too late.
help them to see clearly and know that what you said is true.
that if you believe with your heart and confess with your mouth that JESUS CHRIST is Lord you will be saved.

My happy note for the day.some where in this world some one just got born again, and came into the kingdom of God.
one less person will not go to hell.
but even happyer note is the numbers are much more then one.how do I know? cause the time is short and thats way they are coming in faster...
have a great weekend.and stay safe.
thanks for reading....

Your word I have hidden in my heart.

your word will not return unto you void,but it will do as you sent it to do...
only the perfect will of God be done on earth as it is in heaven...

Moon light.

Moon light and lace.

Peeking through the tree,s.

fall colors and the man in the moon.

summer evening and a smiling old friend.

rainy days and sundays.its a rainy sunday.and I do not feel like writing so Ill leave you with some of the pictures of the moon.
hope all is well in your neck of the world.have a blessed day.and a great week.
God bless and keep you all safe.:)

what do you do?

What do you do if you see some one do some thing that could be hurting them. and not even know it.or maybe doing some thing that could hurt their family down the line.

do you stand by and say nothing or do you run the risk of losing their friendship or love by speaking up?

if you see some one who you know could end up in a place they do not want to be, do you keep still and let them keep on the road they are going on?or do you put a road block up that says this is the wrong way?

that is the thing I go through every day.I see things and hear things and I have to deside if I should speak or be still.

I am no chicken but I also do not like to fight, or not be liked cause I told the truth and the person didnt want to hear it.
its hard if its close family,but its also hard with people you just know.

you see a aditude or mind set or habit.

a man (not someone I know ) found his young daughter was putting sexy pictures of her self on the net.he asked her why she was doing it?
she said she liked the attention she got from the people who seen them.and that every one was doing it.
the Dad said well you live in my home and I will not let you show your self to strangers in those kind of pictures on the net.
first because I love you and want to protect you .and second I want you to know its wrong.

others maybe doing it but its not right,so you will take those pictures off the net.

the girl was very mad at her father but took them off any way.she was very stand offish with him for a few week,s.
the so called friends she had made over the net soon moved on to places they could see what they were looking for.

one person called her a baby cause she listened to her Dad.others said there was nothing wrong with pictures that were revealing or sexy.and for a while egged her on to do even more revealing ones.
they called her father old fashioned and weird.

but soon she began to think about what they were saying.and then she began to think about what her father said.

he said he made her stop cause he loved her and it was wrong.these people on her my space were strangers.
they didnt even know her.some she didnt even know if they were young kids or people like ones she heard her father and mother talk about.
who get friendly with young girls or boys and say they are their age and want to meet.

they say to not tell their parents cause they would stop them.
and they ask the young boy or girl to meet them some place.and the person ends up being a child molester or some one who ends up killing them,and dumping them like trash some place.

she went to her Dad and said she wasnt mad at him any more cause she knew he did it to protect her because he loved her.

I watched a date line show about catching a perditor.and you wouldnt believe how many freaks there are out there who surf the net looking for teen,s for sex.

these men are nasty people who cant get normal relationships so they pick on kids.
some were married men with kids.who drove miles to come to a house where they knew a 13 or 14-15 year old was home alone.and there were over 125 men and more cause they did the sting for a while.

just a while ago I heard about a guy in I think it was florida.who watched for teens alone and he came and raped the four girls in four diffrent homes.

it takes only a few times for any weirdo to know if the kids are alone.

if I still had my girls home they would not be alone.nore were they when they were home.they were my girls and I loved them too much to leave them alone.

it hurts me to think there are young girls who are left alone not only by their mothers ,but the fathers go along with it to.
how scared they must be to know their alone with no one to watch out for them..

kids are kids!!!they dont know how to handle a sneeky adult.that is why they need some one to protect them.and if their own mom and Dad wont then who will?

I also know of some one who is a mom and is always putting revealing pictures of her self on the net.and I wonder if her kids see her my space?and if they do if one day they will do the same as her.
and if she would want her young daughter to do it?or if her daughter would be ashamed to know her mom was putting nude pic,s on the net for all to see.kids get embaressed easy.I know I did when I was young.

some one told me its so easy to find out who any one is on the net.and it scared me.its some thing I wouldnt share cause I do not want any more wierdos to know then already do.

now if its that easy to find a person and their town and their other stuff.then wouldnt it be easy to go to the one,s who have no fear of showing thier self on the net?

I know some one who also is a grown woman and dresses like a little girl.she wears clothes that are like things the street walkers wear.and she has kids who are ashamed of her cause she does.

now do I say some thing to these people and get called a weirdo or old fashioned.
or do I speak up and get in trouble?and even if I do say some thing would they listen?

you would think if they love their kids they would.
but I have found some would just push off warning,s to prove you wrong cause they do not want to be wrong them selves.

so I do as Jesus did I tell story,s and pearables so they hear and maybe listen.

I tryed not to do things so when it came time to tell my kids not to do it.I could say it cause I wasnt doing it.

if I told them not to smoke and had a cig in my face would they listen?no.they would say well you smoke mom.so why cant we.

or if I tell them not to drink and have a beer or what ever in my hand.will they listen?no..they would say you do so why cant we.

or if I take drug,s and tell them not to.will they listen to me?no.they would say you do mom why cant we?

if I dressed like a street walker and tell them not to , will they listen to me?no.they would say well you do mom why cant we?

if I were to put nude pictures of me on my blog and tell them not to ,would they listen to me?no they would say you do mom why cant we?

if I hang in the bar,s and tell them not to will they listen?no they will say well you do mom why cant we?

if I lie and tell them not to,will they listen?no they will say you do so why cant we?
kids do what you do not what you say...

I find what the parents did in moderation the kids will do in excess..

it says in the bible the sin,s of the father or mother are passed down to
the third and fourth genration.
so if my sin,s aint covered under the blood of Jesus my kids would be visited with the junk I tryed out.all the way to the forth genration.

when I found it out I went to the Lord and got my sin,s covered under the blood.and tired to be a good mom.Lord knows they needed one stable one in the family.their father wasnt.I wasnt perfect just tired very hard to do what was right.thank God filled in where I fell short.

but if my kids do not get their sin,s covered then their kids will be visited.thats the way sin is it leaves a door open for the devil to mess with you kids.

if ya do not believe me check out the story of king David in the bible.his sin cost him his son,s life.

getting your sin covered closes the door.and the messes we got into will not visit our kids or grandkids.
but if they choose to sin knowingly then they need to be the ones who turn to the Lord them selves.

I thought about just keeping my big mouth shut.but I cant let it slip by.if I did Id feel bad if some thing happened.and I would be to blame.but I will not set by and be still.if it helps one kid to be safe then it would be worth it.

I wish people would spend more time worrying about their kids then doing their own thing..

I know a lady who told me once long ago before I even had kids.
she said "when you have kids do not be afraid to check to see if they are where they say they are."
she said "Id drop them off at a place and Id go check a hour later to see if they were there.Id go right in the place and want to speak to them.and they never knew when Id do it".she said" they are your kids if ya do not watch out for them no one else will."

I admired her a lot,she raised 7 boy,s...

I may be in dutch for speaking up,and I do not like the feeling.but I also do not like to hear the news and hear the sad tail,s of what goes on in this world.

and I do not want it to come to my family..

so if any one gets mad at me its ok cause at lest you can not say I didnt say some thing.

I can not do anything about this but the Lord can.

it says in the word."not by might or power but by my Spirit says the Lord."

Lord I have spoken out and said some thing.I have not been still,but I can not do anything about this only you can.
turn the hearts of the fathers to the mothers and kids,and the hearts of the mothers to their hubby,s and kids.so they will all watch over and protect the little ones you gave then.and turn all their hearts to you.Amen.

and forgive me Lord if I messed up on what I said or how I said it.I am no great speaker just a old house wife with not much learning.use what you can and bless it and trash the stuff you can not use...perpair the hearts to hear it.

and please Lord help me be right with you so my mistakes or sin,s do not get visited on my kids or grandkids.cause you said if I put my family in your hands you would get them to where you want them to be.
I did the best I could when they were with me.and I can not be with them now only you can.
so please Lord do as you promised..whisper in their ear,s and get their attention and get them all right with you.none missing...none lost...I ask it in the name of Jesus amen and amen..

the storm moved in.

The storm,s of life either make you stronger or rip you apart.bend like the Maple so you can live to fight the storm,s again...

All day the weather man said we were in for storm,s.the map showed we were in the red and under the gun again.we surely needed rain.cause we have been in a drought in this area of the country.we arent as bad as some.but the farmers need it for their crop,s.the corn is so sad where they do not have irrigation rig,s.the corn barely stand,s a foot or two high and is yellow as the sun.the ear,s look skinny and sick,and the leaves rolled and dry.we need all the rain we can get.

but for some it will not have come in time.not even close!!!the farmers will have a lien year again.the cow,s will have hay cause they have enough rain for that.but corn prices will be up cause there is a shortage.it will help some and kill others.hopefully they can hang on another year...

I sat in my chair watching the news and doing my journal.I felt I should call the kids and tell them to watch the weather in cause it got bad.they were going to be gone for a while.I called and got Anna on the phone and told her to watch the sky.she said they would be careful.they had taken their trip before school starts.

I sat and watched the weather channel as they showed the storm moving in.it was getting close to Anna,s so I prayed for protection on their place cause they were gone.I watched the storm clouds split and go around us.it only gave sweet rain no wind like they got in other places.no hail as big as a quarter.just sweet rain.
in the afternoon the eagle had been circling over town.I seen him two or three times in the day. it seemed he was in a hurry to find food and get some place safe long before the storm came.the eagle can set his wings and fly way above the storm.and stay there till it passes.but he headed south to his roost.to weather the storm. ..I stayed up late to be sure all the storms had moved through.and they said we would get more storm,s tomorrow.

today the west of us it is getting set up for more storm,s.we are in the red again.this time the red is much bigger and clovers more area then yesterday.so rain is on its way again.this time I pray it gets to those who need it.

I have been in a lot of storm,s.some mild spring rain and some that made your hair stand on end.I love thunderstorm,s. I have all my life.
when I was a kid on the farm I could not wait for them to come though.Id sit and watch them come .the day would start out sunny and warm,the breeze slow and mild.then to the west Id see the faint sign of clouds moving in .Id go out to the field west of the house, out beyond the tree,s and sit on the grass and watch them move closer.when they got almost to me Id head for the house or the barn if I could get away with it.

The barn was the best place to be for me.but not safe my mom and granny would say.what if a wind storm came?you would be trapped and we wouldnt know where.
but if I could Id sneek there and lay in the haymow and watch as the wind would come first blowing the smell of sweet rain in the air.
I would lay there all safe and warm with the fresh hay as a bed beneath me.I could see the clouds moving angerly along their way.the changing colors and the smell of hail in the cold air.I would see the low hanging white hail clouds .telling me before I could even smell it or feel the cold air rush in, that someone had got hail.

I would listen to the rumble of the thunder off in the distance and see the lighting flash across the sky.the birds would come into the top of the barn and hid under the eves.
the cow,s would be close to the barn or Dad or mom would put them in.and the cow,s would be uneasy cause they seemed to know the storm was coming long before the first thunder rumbled.how they knew I dont know.maybe the smell of rain in the breeze.

the pigeon,s would be making their cowing sound high above me.if they had young you could hear them trying to get the food their mom was giving them.the sparrow,s chirped and russel around and fought for their space in the rafter,s.the calves called for their milk in the calf pen.
I was enjoying my self so much I forgot one thing,the curly headed fun recking,sharp tonged screech bird that lived on our farm.soon I heard the cry in the distance.my name called and the E on the end echoed off the shed,s and barn and building most likely for mile,s everyone around knew my granny was looking for me.

so reluctantly I said I am in the barn can I stay pleeeeease!!!!!but "NO" came the sound .
you come now there is a storm coming you need to get in here NOW!!!

I slowly got up and made my way to the ladder and down through the barn by the cow,s.I petted the one by the alley.she was one I liked.her name was Bessy.she looked at me as if to say cant ya stay a while?but I told her I had to go in the house cause granny was calling.she licked my hand and seemed to be sad to see me go...

the calves said hey where is our milk your in here get us our milk!!!I said hold your horse,s its not even milking time yet.its only cloudy and dark cause it is going to rain..you will get your milk soon enough .

yes I talked to the animal,s around me.they were my friends.and I had heard a story from the bible my granny told me of the begining.and Eve talked to a snake..
well if she could hear the snake and talk to it and it could hear her.then why couldnt I talk to the animal,s "now "and they understand me?and so I did,and you know they did understand me.I loved them and they loved me.they knew Id never hurt them.and most of them would never hurt me.

but you know I think one of our cow,s belonged to the devil.she was a mean ugly four legged freak.she would rather kick ya then look at ya.and she would do it with a smile on her face to boot.I never did any thing to her or was ever mean in any way.but she hated me.

I was coming through the barn one day and she missed my head by a hair.I felt the power behind her kick but not the kick its self.
my Dad was so dang mad at her he went nut,s.he took the rope and a pully we had for some thing.and he roped her leg and through the rope over the barn cleaner bar over head and pulled her leg up so high I was afraid he would break it.and he tied it off.
I begged for him to let her down.but he said she needed to learn to stop before she killed someone.I felt like crying but he was right.

I went around and whispered for her to be good.so he would let her down.I could see she was sorry.maybe I scared her or some thing.I didnt make noise when I came in so maybe I just surprised her.any way Dad let her down after he cooled down.and she walked with a limp for a few day,s.and I told her I was sorry if I had scared her.she never kicked at me again.

I ended back in the house just before the rain came hard.I ran to my room and lay on my bed.granny asked if Id like a sandwich to hold me over for supper.I had peanut butter.I eat my sandwich and listened to the rain on the roof over my bed.my bed was nestled in under the eve and it was great for hearing the patter of rain drop,s.
my window was safe to be open cause it faced the east.and the rain usually didnt come in unless the wind changed.

I could hear mom and granny talking about supper,and the rain,things about the farm.just every day things women who care about one another share on a rainy day.
I could smell the rain and the lovely smells from the kitchen that would be our supper.I could hear the dog,s bark when some one came.most likely one of the farmers who could leave cause of the rain ,and have my Dad weld some thing for them.they didnt come in the house cause Dad was in the shop on rainy day,s.
working on our repair need,s.granny said it was someone but I didnt catch the name.

I was soon asleep and the storm and the day melted away.only to remain in my memorie.when I feel sad or lonely I can recall those day,s and go back to a innocent place and time.before the storm came and ripped away the lovely days of a farm girl and the place she called home.

today is another day and there is storm,s to the west of us.the weather man says some could be severe.so I sit and wait for it to get closer to see what will come.they said wind,s and hail.or what they call straight line wind,s.they call them some thing else but I dont know how to spell it.its like de-ray she -o (Derecho )they gave the spelling.or some thing.any way they are the pit,s!!!
in the 80,s they came through and flattened every thing in their way.for 300 miles they took down barn,s high line wires houses,shop,s.shed,s tree,s large and small.it was like all hell broke out.we all headed to the basement just in time.my Dad who was drunker the a skunk almost got killed running to the house to see if we were OK.he had been in the shop fixing some thing,or filling his face with booze was more like it.ehe was going to run back out, my step mom said stop him to me.I had to get up in his face and tell him to get real and listen to the storm.if he went back out and got killed where would his wife and son be without him???

for the first time in his life he listened to me.I was shocked...good thing he stayed in cause just about the time he would have been on the way back to the shop the corn cribb went and all the tin roofing would have surely killed him or hurt him bad.

the sound of the wind was like nothing I ever heard before.and the barn that had stood for years unused and unfilled went down.the place where a young girl with a sprig of timothy grass in her mouth lay and dreamed lazy summer day,s away.saw the storm,s come rolling in.and made friends with three baby pigeon,s .the barn where she would lay and watch the star,s as mom and Dad milked.the barn where the calves and cow,s she loved stayed for year,s.the barn was gone but the memories still live on.

that storm took the tree,s down ,that were many year,s old.
some planted long before I was born.some that stood when the Indian,s walked this country.some my great grandpa planted when he moved here.the maple,s lost their top,s.but still stubbornly clung to life,and lived to grow even taller.the hard wood,s who refused to give in the unrelenting wind toppled over and were no more.

when we came out of the basement ,the farm as we knew it was gone.the old pieces of the past flattened in the wind.
my granny cry,ed,all of us felt like it.she said it looked like a war had been faught in the yard.
she went off in a daze saying "its all gone,its all gone.it will never be the same.

but years later after she was gone to be with Jesus, a tornado would take even more.but the tree she planted long before I was born in a place no one wanted it.
saved the house giving its life to do so.she had felt she should plant that mapel there just to the south /west of the corner of the house.
and when the tornado came that tree stood in its way.it sent the blunt of the storm up and over the house.it was like the hand of God pushing that wind away from the homestead and over to flatten the corn crib on the other side.

God warned my granny.he had her plant that tree on her watch.and she was rewarded for her obedience.by her family being saved, and their home damaged but not lost.they went on to rebuild and add on.and the home that granny loved would live to see another generation born to live there.the sixth.

many things have tired to rip apart the homestead my great great grandpa and grandma built.but the Lord protected it.and as long a there are God loving and fearing(respecting)people there it will stand.
the storm,s of life do not rip apart a tree that bends in the wind,s of life.it only causes it to become stronger,cause its root,s go deeper into the good earth to live to fight again.


All rights reserved by the writer. written Aug 13 2007.no part of this can be used..

it rained in the night,and then early this morning.the thunder rumbled off in the distance and the sound of the rain drops came slowly from the west.it was around 4;00 am, the street was still empty and I was able to enjoy the peacefulness.before the city woke up.
in the dark room I could tell when the lighting flashed.I could see it light up my covered windows.
the weatherman had said we may have some storms.but we only received a mild rain storm.

always some thing to see from my window.

about a week or so ago.I was sitting in my chair and happened to look up just in time to see this hot air ballon drifting over.
I watched it for a short time as I wished I were up there drifting silently over the country.drifting with the breeze.

As I took pictures I didnt even know the bird was on this one.I never even seen him.he is just to the left of the ballon.
looks as if he is having just as much fun as they are in the ballon.people say its so wonderful to go up in one.they say its some thing evveryone should do at some time in their life.I was in a air plane once when I was a young kid.my uncle had his friend stop by and give my mom ,Dad , granny and me a ride.it was a little piper cub and it was the best addventure of my young life..our hay field was cut and the plane came in and landed there.it was pretty bumpy,but he made it.

He took me up first cause I was so exsited. we rumbled down the field picking up speed and shot up into the air just before we ran out of field.I was scared but thrilled just the same.I was just speechless at first.and he was pleased to see the joy it was giving me.he took me over our farm and it was so cool to see it all before me.I felt like a bird or rolaltiy all at once.

He asked what I would like to see next?I said Id love to see our swamp and creek.he headed east and there lay the swamp as far as I could see.the ponds and ditchs Dad had dug.the creek and the pine Island.all were rich and green and lush from the spring rain,s.
I could have stayed up there forever.my world seemed to get a whole lot bigger as my eye,s slowely over all I saw..

then as fast as it game the ride was over,and we drifted out of the sky and rumbled down the field and stopping just west of the house.someone else hopped in and off they went.I ran to the my tree house and lay down so I could just think about the time in the heavens like a bird.

I loved how every thing looked.the field,s looked like patchwork blankets like granny and mom made for our bed,s for winter.the ponds and creek looked like silver coins and silver ribbon,s.the tree,s looked like little plants in our garden.the house and shed,s looked like my doll toy,s.and the dog,s looked like little mice.our cow,s were afraid when we flew over and ran for a safer place tell we went by and they could go back to grazing..

as I lay there thinking about all I had seen I wanted to travel all over this country.I day dreamed about being able to see all of the USA..I wanted to go over sea,s and see all this old earth had to offer.but as a kid how did I know Id be in my 50,s some day and had only seen all of my own state.and the USA was still waiting for me to travel its roads and by way,s.but for that day I could dream of things I wanted to do when I grew up.

Lord willing one day I will travel,even if I have to go alone,I have had to most of my life.when I got married the hubby and I traveled for over 8 weeks all over the state and into two or three more.but now that we are not together.I havent felt like going.I just need to get back on my horse and go.

I still want to travel see new things and places.do new thing,s.and I should not let what happened with the hubby stop my desire to see my world..my heart seem,s to need some mending yet..

I use to go all the time.rent a cabin up north some place and just go. Id enjoy being there alone.Id read,and do art work,and just spend time with the Lord.Id do my journel.those were some of the best times of my life.Id dream about the time when I could be with some one I loved and who loved me.so we could share the joy,s of traveling togehter.but little did I know that being with someone again would break my heart so badly that I would never want to be with anyone again..

so I need to heal and move on and do the things I wanted to before I was foolish enough to get married again.had I been smart Id have never gotten invalved in the frist place.but its too late and now I have to go on.

deep in my heart lays a young girls dream,s and hopes..places still call me.and travel is still in my blood.my grandfather and great grandfather were travelers.they traveled from our farm ,out west,and my great great grandpa came from England.one from germany.

the one from England setteled in pennsilvana frist before coming to the mid west to settel.he made a cabin down by the creek and the homestead was born.5 generations of family have lived on the farm..yes traveling is in my blood.its my anseters who were travels,their love for travel flow,s through my vain,s.I come from good stock..yes there was some black sheep I suppose some place in the bunch.every one has a skeltins in their family.

I have a great uncle who went out west to homestead and never was heard from again.someone said he was shoot,and who knows what happened to his land.one of the other uncles went to hollywood to see how the movies were made.and he was not to happy to see it.he was in a movie as a extra.he wore a long black coat.we seen the one he was in but I didnt see him cause their were alot of people milling about.he was very tall and I spotted one very tall man so I guess it had to be him.

he was a cool man.he was full of fun .he use to drive his mom nutty.he hated to get his picture taken, but his mom always made him.so one time as a protest he did a nasty.he rolled up and 5 dollar bill and placed it in his zipper,right where some thing else should be,if you get my drift.well just as the mom who was standing next to him happened to see the bill,she was horrified and the camera man had snaped the picture.and believe me if you didnt know better you would think it was what she thought it was.she was fixen to whale his hid when she could move.
she chased his butt tell she caught him and his ears got some choice words.he was trying to tell her the truth but she was haven none of it.finely after she cooled down he showed her the bill.and she finely saw he was not a nasty old man...

he also was the one who dressed like a old gypsy woman and came down the long drive way when she thought she was home alone.she was afriad the woman would see she was alone and tell her family and she would be kidnaped.so when uncle came down the road great grandma was beside herself so much he had to tell her the truth..she waled his hide.so you see I have some wierd family.he was a cool old guy but he sure liked to bedevil his poor mom..his Dad would climb up to the top of big pine tree,s and leen way out to get his picture taken .he was a very tall man.and his wife was very short.he would lift her up and stand her on a tree trucks or stumps to get their picture taken.you could see in her face she was the blunt of many short joke,s..maybe that is why she didnt smile much..

I guess I get my funny bone from the guys and my fistyness from the women.they were all good cook,s and strong.wish I could have met them all.but thank God for storys of them and pictures so I can know them that way.

the uncle also was the one who wanted a shed on his place but didnt have the room.only place he could ,there was a big old oak tree standing.
so one day he went out and started to build.soon there stood a nice shed with a oak tree growing out of it.
everyone thought he had lost his mind.but that old oak lived a long time.and uncle had the use of a shed.
when the oak grow too big he would just cut a little of the roof away to let it grow.the rain came in and watered the foot of the tree.but didnt cause other problem,s cause he put a ring around the foot to catch the water.
he was a smart man.but his wife left him cause she didnt see the wisdom or the funny blone as others did.he lost his two daughters and wife.after that he was a loner.he still was a wonderful man and kind and caring.he always made others welcome in his home.he just never would trust his heart again to anyone.

one day my mom and granny and I went to visit him.he welcomed us into his little home.
my grandma almost had a hissy fit when nanny the goat came out of the bedroom to say hi..she came and lay down near us and listened to us visit.
when uncle fixed the coffee for the women,mom drank it with milk.uncle called nanny goat over and took mom,s coffee cup and nanny goats utter and soon mom had her milk.
mom just stood there not knowing what to do.. I winked at her hopeing she wouldnt hurt his feeling,s.
she said well B,that sure is a handy ice box you have there to keep your milk cool.he leened back in his rocker and his big blooming laugh filled the room.

I loved that man then and there.he was real!!!!
we sat and visited some more,once in a while he would stoke the wood stove next to him.he shut the oven part cause it was a cook stove to.and we settled in again and the three adults talked while I petted nanny who took a likeing to me.
there was a lull in the talking almost on Q.and a heck of a nose and a rattle and out of the oven came a very warm cat,she let out of there for places on known.
mom screamed,granny almost fell off her chair,and me I sat in wide eyes amazment.
and uncle laughed tell he could laugh no more.he finely calmed himself down and and said I wondered where she had gotten herself to.
that old cat loves to be warm.but guess she was a little too warm..and he laughted again.all of us did.
I wanted that day to never end,I wanted to set at his feet forever and hear the stories of my family and hear his wonderful laugh.but soon it was getting close to supper and chore time.so the lady,s washed up the few dishes for him and we were about to leave.
when uncle said say you need to see way nanny is in the house.so he took us into the bedroom and in a box near his bed were two twin lamb,s.they were sound asleep.
mom and I fell in love with them.they lay so nice and warm in their little bed.uncle petted them and smiled down at them.you could see he loved nanny and the lambs.they were his family too.
I got as close to him as I could,I wanted to feel the love I felt in the room.he toselled my hair and winked at me.then he said would you and your mom like these two when they are big enough to come with you?
we both let out little happy "O yes please....well that was the day I knew my uncle was a good man, no matter if his wife and girls didnt think so,I did.and not cause he gave me a lamb,but because he was a good man.
we left and went home.the lambs were too young to go with us yet.so mom said dont tell your Dad or he will say we cant have them.so I kept my mouth shut.

but one day when Dad was gone uncle showed up with the lamb,s.he asked if my Dad had said it was ok?but mom said she would have to talk their way into the family.so for the time being they were beded down in the bath tub.they went to sleep,and were there when Dad came home.
and where do you think he went when he came in the house?yap the bathroom.and mom hoped they would stay asleep
so she could kind of smooth the way.but all at once you could hear him say "what the"!!!! and the jig was up.
mom went into get the lamb,s.and try to talk him into them staying.but Dad said this was a cattle farm.and sheep were not good cause they eat the grass to low.he let us keep them for only a few weeks then took them back to uncle.
uncle was ok with it,but he said he would give us a pig to make up for the lose of the lamb,s.

so for a while in the spring we had a pig in the parler as granny called her.she was little and pink and so cute.she got out of the bathroom,and headed for the parler on the double.that was a laugh to see. mom and granny chased that little pig all over the house.granny yelling mom laughing and the pig sqwelling to high heaven.I laughed so hard I almost pee,d my pants.

Yes it was a life of fun and wonder on the farm.every day was a new addventure.a fitting place for a child to grow and live.a place where you could learn the wonders of God,s critters.a place that only lives unchanged in my heart and mind.
O the farm is still there only its not the same any more.there are no sheep,or baby pig,s,or cow,s in the field,s.only corn and beans cover the fields.no hay is in the barn cause the storm in the 80,s blew it down.
no chickens peck or scratch the ground.the shed,s are gone.and some of the tree,s that shaded the house.
and the happy family has long sence changed to a diffrent one.O my Dad still lives there,and he is remarried to my step mom.and they have a son.and he has his own family.its not my home any more,only in my memories..

so that day long ago as I lay in my tree house is all I have to remember of the day the plane landed in our hey field.and the ride I had in the sky like a bird.but those memories replay in my mind,and so many more.
days of a child,s life before the door,s were open to sin that let the devil come in and rip our family apart.and forever change the farm and the family who once lived there on the farm...


( note from the writer.I need to tell you one more thing about my uncle.he was the kind of man to see if you had a hissy fit about anything.I seen him watch the ladys when nanny goat came out.and I could see what granny was thinking.
her nose wrinkled and she didnt like the fact the goat was in the house.she didnt give him the benifit of the dout that there maybe a good reason.there was cause it was too cold for them to be in his shed.they came too late.
and I also saw some thing else that day.he knew that cat was in there,I could see it in his eyes when he looked at me.only I didnt know what he was up to.but his eyes told me to watch .and when it all unfolded I shared something with him..
and when mom asked for milk his eyebrow when up as if he were giggleing to himself or thinking of a joke only he knew.
when mom said what she did his smile showed he was pleased to see she could take a joke in style..I dont know if he seen me wink or not I will have to ask him when I get to heaven..right after I give him the biggest hug he ever had.that is if his mom aint chasing him around for some thing he did to her..
Jesus please tell B for me that I love him and miss him..and Ill see him soon.)


All rights to this story are resevered.and belong to the writer.Aug 10,2007.

the dog days of summer.

or better known as pea soup and no swiming.
yuck yuck..the rivers and ponds look like pea soup.and smell like pea poop..
Anna and the boys and I went on an addventure looking for a place to swim..well it turned out its not so good to swim this time of year.the rivers and lakes are all full of alge..and they dont smell so good.

this is some of my treasures..the roses I picked up one day that lasted almost two week,s and my lamp that the girls and Lucy got me for mothers day one year.the two alabaster box,s from TBN my ministry partners..my Lilic candle from Em,s school sale.I have two of them.the other is vanilla and they both smell so good.the picture of Jesus is a pine nettle basket I made.and it is holding rose petals.
these things that sit by my bed.

this was on the side of the road on our way home.and being a eagle , had to stop to take its picture.it is pretty big..its for some new place they are making.wasnt the best looking eagle.but cool any way.
I have been busy lately.lucy and the girls em and sar bear came for a visit..so me and the rest of the family Anna,her hubby and the boys went on an addventure.we took Lucy,em and sar bear up to the bluff,s.they at lest got to see it.but it was raining alot.and they were not dressed warm.so they came running back to the car cold and wet.we stopped at a cheese store and Anna and hubby got some cheese curds.I brought meat sticks..Anna had good pop to.rootbeer,and orange cream.
we drove to some little stores and Lucy and Anna went in.I waited for one down the road and went in.alot of nice stuff.but I have no room.
I did see a sign Iam going to get just for a laugh.it said.
(men are idits,and I married their king.)

but to be fair I have to make one that says.
(God made women dumb so they would marry men.)
after all I was dumb enough to get married in the first place..
and lately its as dangerous as anything.
I been listening to the news about all the women getting killed by hubby,s and boyfriends.
and the single life looks so good to me.I will never trust my heart to a man again.I learned my lessen well.so I do learn from my mistakes..
wish I could say some good things about men.but I try to find good.but then I hear all the bad and it just makes me sick,its so sad.

men who cheat on their girlfriends over and over,and cant figure out why they drop them..men who kill off their PG girlfriend cause they dont want another child,cause they are married already..
on and on and on.men who kidnape and rape and kill little girls,or little boys.
hubbys who kill their wives cause their too dang cheap to get a divorce..I could go on and on..
so do I respect men?not any more.cause how do you know what one of them are just normal?these women married them thinking they were normal and they ended up dead.this is a evil perverted world we live in.
when someone can be killed and dumped into the water just cause your going to have a baby.just cause your skum bag hubby has a blond mistress. and he really doesnt want a child.like poor lacy peterson.or poor Lori hacking who,es old man was a fruit cake and living a lie.almost every day someone is being killed,by the nut cases in the world.

then there are people in the government who let a bridge kill people off.just cause they would rather spend the money on some thing else then to fix the bridge.and they would let a warning that the bridge wasnt safe go unheeded for 13 years.
Minnisota,s men did that..wonder how they will get around that one.with the people killed and injured from that mess?
I have found some men would rather have a house fall down around their heads then to fix the dumb thing.
what is it with people like that?
sad but there are other bridges in the USA that are just as bad or worse.and it takes a killing of others before they get off their stupid butts and do some thing.
the money is there from taxes and toll,s why isnt it being used?
people cross those bridges every day..what are they waiting for?another 40 some to be killed like on one of the bridges a few years ago.
yes men are idits!!!!I know some guys who let their wife and kids ride around on baild tires.but boy let their cars or truck s get just a little bare and they are johnny on the spot to fix them..but wife and kids have to wait tell they are sitting along the road some place..
so do I respect men?No..
do I think there are some good ones ?God I hope there is..or we are in for more killings and hell for woman..
are there bad women? yes and I dont respect those eather.
its just sad that people cant just get a divorce if they dont want to be with the person any more..its cheaper then spending the rest of your life in jail!!! .ya go down pay about 100 for the papers,wait six months and get the divorce.and for you cheating creeps you can still be running round while ya wait.
if ya have kids and dont want to pay child support then give up your rights to see them and you dont have to pay for them..you dont deserve to see them any way so let them alone.
just cause ya had sex dont make you a father!!!dont even make ya a good man.
yes I have a bad taste where some people are concerned..my father was a bad man in more ways then one.he cheated on my mom and molested me.
my step father was a very good man one of the very very few I have met in my life..
there were nice men years ago when I was young..my grandfather,and some of the men around where we lived.
but now days they are getting to be harder and harder to find.
I will hear a woman say Oh I have a good man.then you sit and listen to the guy a while and you know he has her blinded to the truth.or she is just lieing to her self..
it makes me sad to think things have fallen so low..
I hear about the things teens are up to now and it makes me wish I could keep my grandkids safe from heart break.but we all go through the crush stage..
just hope they dont have to go through the smashed stage..
I know one man I can trust my heart to..
and He is my hubby now.it says in Isaiah 54:4-6.
{Fear not;you will no longer live in shame.The shame of your youth and the sorrows of widowhood will be remembered no more,for your creator will be your husband.}
when I saw that in the bible I was over joyed.I knew no matter what I was never alone.and even if a man here on earth didnt want me Jesus did.
He loved me when I had no one to love me the way I should have been loved.
He thought I was still pretty when I was fat from having two children.He loved me when I lost all my hair when I had cancer.
He loved me when I lost all the weight and looked like warmed over death.He love me and never left me.He stood by me when my hubby was a drunk and treated me and my girls like dirt.
He loved me ,when the second one loved two other woman and not me.
He loved me, when the third one left me cause he would rather fantasize about weird stuff then to be with some one who loved him.
Yes He loved me through it all.He has been the only one who I could always count on.
He loves me!!!!
He is the only man who walked the face of this earth who I would ever trust my heart to.cause He is my creator.and He is my best friend,He is my savior and the Lord of my life.
He knows all my faults and loves me any way..
He knows my shape and still thinks I am pretty.
{I love you Jesus,your the love of my life.forgive me for looking to man for the love only your able to give.}

life is far too short to stick with someone who does not treat you right.or give you the respect you need.or the love you crave.everyone needs love.but not the kind that kills you or zap,s the life and joy out of you.

I see woman who stay with men who drink like fish and think its ok.while the poor woman and kids suffer cause they play second fiddle to a booze bottle.its not worth it.in the long run your life is gone and your bitter. for your life was spent with someone who did not treat you with respect.

God never intended for you to stay in a marriage where your either hurt or abused.that means mentaly,,emotionaly,or bodly..
when a man harms a woman he has lost his right to her.God never agree,s with being abusive..
and when a man run,s out and
cheats on his wife. God does not agree with that.or if a woman run,s out on her hubby..
when some one does that they have lost their right to the person.
unless the one cheated on is willing to take the cheater back ,if they realize they were wrong and ask for forgiveness and are done with ever doing that evil thing again.
problem with that is if the person isnt really sorry,or just uses it for mercy.
but you can tell those who learned their lesson..
and you can tell those who have not..
the Lord will show you the truth about a lost cause..if you ask him he will show you..he has done it for me and he would for you to..

PLEASE,PLEASE DO NOT STAY IN A RELATIONSHIP WHERE YOUR BEING HURT.OR CHEATED ON , OR BEING ABUSED.
GET HELP.TELL SOMEONE.
DONT LET YOUR CHILDERN LIVE IN A HOME LIKE THAT.IF YOU HAVE TO TAKE YOUR KIDS AND RUN .
THERE ARE PLACES THAT WILL HELP YOU.THE TELEPHONE BOOK HAS LISTINGS.CALL AND TELL THEM THAT THE HUBBY OR WIFE IS ABUSIVE AND YOU FEAR FOR YOUR LIFE.
THAT YOU NEED TO GET AWAY WHERE THEY CANT FIND YOU.AND THEY WILL HELP YOU.AND IF THEY WONT, KEEP CALLING TELL YOU FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL...DONT LIVE IN A PLACE WHERE YOU OR YOUR KIDS COULD BE HURT OR KILLED.LIFE IS TOO SHORT.
I know its scary to be alone.I been alone most of my life.its not easy..but Ill tell you some thing.its a whole lot better then being in a marriage or relationship from hell..
I dont know if any one who reads this is having theses problems or not?but I write this for those who may read it , that do ..

Jesus loves you and your family..He wants better for you..He does not like divorce,but he does not like men hurting and killing,or beating women either..he does not like women doing the same to men either.
Jesus came to tell us he wants us happy.not fearful for our lives.
no one should tell anyone to stay in a abusive relationship.no one,not your priest,paster,mother,father,their father or mother, friends,welfare worker,no one should tell you to stay..
if you fear for your life run....take what you can and run!!!!go as far and as fast as you can to where they cant find you.
God wants his children happy.not scared to death,or mistreated..
a wise man once said.
(do not invest your time or money in something that does not work!!!)
WE ARE COMPLETE IN JESUS..
NO PERSON MAKES US COMPLETE ..
if your alone Jesus will be your hubby..
believe me he is the best one you will ever find..and no man on earth can hold a candle to him.
and if ya do not know what that means.it means.
once you try Jesus as your husband you will never go back..
cause he is the best..
I have heard the same from other women to.
My granny use to have a saying ..she said it about my grandpa.but I use it for Jesus..
(once you have had the best why mess with the rest..)
thats as plain as I can say it..

NOTE FROM THE
WRITER .IF YOUR A GOOD MAN THEN GOOD FOR YOU!!!KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK..AND I WOULD SURE SHAKE YOUR HAND AND SAY GOOD TO MEET YOU.

BUT IF YOUR A DRUNK AND CAUSING YOUR FAMILY SORROW,SHAPE UP AND FLY RIGHT BEFORE THEY KICK YOUR WORTHLESS BUTT TO THE CURB..
IF YOUR A WOMAN BEATER OR CHILD ABUSER SHAPE UP BEFORE YOU HURT OR KILL THEM..LEAVE THEM GET AWAY FROM YOU,YOU DO NoT DESERVE THEM ANYWAY...
IF YOUR A CHEATER THEN LET YOUR WIFE GO FIND A GOOD MAN..HE WILL TREAT HER THE WAY SHE SHOULD BE TREATED.
OR IF YOUR CHEATING ON YOUR HUBBY,LET HIM FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL TREAT HIM AND LOVE HIM THE WAY HE SHOULD BE.OR GO BACK AND BEG FOR FORGIVENESS IF YOU HAVE LEARNED YOUR LESSON..

AND IF YOUR ON DRUGS THEN GET AWAY FROM YOUR FAMILY AND LET THEM LIVE A LIFE FREE FROM YOUR HELL..
AND GET YOUR SELF SOME HELP BEFORE YOU END UP DEAD..CAUSE YOU WILL BE IF KEEP ON THE WAY YOUR GOING..

THANKS TO THOSE WHO ARE READING MY BLOG.
I WILL BE BUSY AND ILL POST WHEN I CAN.
God bless have a great week..
I needed to vent.its hard to see so much pain and sorrow in this world.I pray for people I see who are having problem,s.but I tell them to leave if the relationship is not safe.too many women have died already.too many years,and time spent with people who do not know how to be in relationship,s.and I do not believe in staying just cause your married.some women stayed years ago with bad men because they did not have any where else to go.wonder how many died cause they were killed?because we did not have the means to find the truth back then like we do now.